the enigma

Buoy

2012-01-12T14:24:00.002+08:00

Go and have your life..
I won't bother..
Feel free to drop by mine whenever you're sick of yours..
I'm used to be your hotel..
I don't mind to be your buoy once in a while..
Though..

I'm not the old self anymore..
Thanks to you..
I'm now a transformed creature..
Till then..
Farewell..

The Real You

2012-01-08T00:18:00.003+08:00

The dream was so real -

The touch of your lips;

The smile of your eyes;
The craving you showed;
The marks you left;

They were all so real.

Dreams are just dreams -
Shattered once awakened.
Though,

I wish to dream the dream again,
For I wish to see the real you again -

The one whom

I loved, am loving, and will love
LIFELONG.

Dream

2012-01-05T01:21:00.001+08:00

Every night,
I'm dreaming of you.
I woke up
And I realized

My tears rolled down my cheeks.
How I wish you were here,

So that I could at least
See you sleeping right next to me.
Sorry for showing my weak side to you.
I kept bracing up myself,
But I just couldn't hold it any longer.
I don't know when I'll burst out in tears.
For I really am
Missing you,

Dear.

01012012

2012-01-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012!!!

Recently, I was too lazy to blog. Sorry about that. Well, in this new year, I hope I could see through the remaining 366 days. This Year 2012 is my very first step into a business-cum-education world. I have never thought that I would have my own business and become a boss at this young age. Hopefully, I could manage everything well. I'm not going to let myself, my family, my friends and others down. I hope my business will flourish, I hope my health will be in tip-top condition, I hope my luck will be good, I hope my timing will be precise and I would hope for a lot of things if I could be allowed to hope for more. Last but not the least, allow me to share what I posted in my Facebook for my New Year resolution.

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2012 shines, 2011 fades...
Here we rhyme for the forgotten shades...
Have a great 2012...
A new year, a new life, a new path & a new destiny await us...
Let's strive through and create a new world...
101401
I shall be waiting...
=)

Clock Strikes Twelve

2011-12-27T22:15:00.003+08:00

I made new flyers with registration form on them.
Tomorrow's newspapers are going to have them.
Hopefully every penny I spent will have its return.
Tomorrow I have to wake up early.
Hopefully my flu will be gotten rid.

My inner body is kinda "heaty".
I'm waiting for the clock to strike twelve.
I shall be waiting....

A Message

2011-12-27T15:26:00.001+08:00

While I was Facebooking, I came across this picture.
It was indeed an excruciating message.
I wonder who's the original creator.
Is he/she still alive?
Is he/she okay by now?

I shall be waiting....

The Songs

2011-12-27T00:14:00.002+08:00

I have just posted up a post here few hours ago and now here I am again, posting up another one. : )
While I was driving to Gemas today, I listened to the radio and there were many songs aired by the DJ's.
Here are some of those which I could still remember and I deemed special. You can click on the titles and they will link you to their respective Youtube sites.

學不會 (林俊傑)

The same song I heard when I first drove to Gemas.
A great melody with nice tune. : )
I listened to it twice in the car.

別再驚動愛情 (張棟樑)
Another great song. It's from a Malaysian singer.
A tough song to sing. I'd need to practise deep breathing before I can sing it.

x_x

分隔線 (李佳薇)
Yeah... Jess Lee, my idol. A great Malaysian singer with a great range of vocal!
It's a super sad song when you are super sad.
It's not sad when you are not sad.
Hahaha... That's magical....

不是不滿足 (A-lin)

Well, this song doesn't catch my heart at all despite its fame.
I don't know. Perhaps it's just not my forte.

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Oh, and this one is posted by one of my friends in Facebook few minutes ago:

我們就到這 (梁靜茹)

The lyrics seem sad. If only the emotion is sadder..... =X

She is a Malaysian. There are a lot of nice songs from her actually.

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OK. That's it for now. It's almost time for me to sleep. I haven't been sleeping early recently. @_@
I don't know why I posted this up in my blog though.
Just take it as a sharing. : )
I shall be waiting....

Memoir in My Heart

2011-12-26T22:27:00.000+08:00

-Memoir-

The gist of everything;

Only the memories are treasured;
Deep in my humane heart.

So,

Expect not much elaboration in this piece of blog.

Thank you...

-24 Dec-

Protagonists were Sunway Pyramid and Beer.
A great shopping even though I just bought a watch.
A great drinking session.
I was drunk for the first time.
BUT,
I won't make myself drunk anymore.
A promise I made that I shall keep for eternity.

-25 Dec-
MV

Had a movie - Alvin and the Chipmunks 3.

Hilarious.

Window shopping.

Food hunting in Jusco.

What a great day.

-26 Dec-

Ended my KL excursion.

Had YTF as lunch before bidding farewell.
2.5-hour journey -

Back to a black-and-white town.

2 students registered my tuition class just now.
Had dinner in a restaurant.
Done managing my account.
I shall be waiting....

Pillow Talk

2011-12-23T21:45:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, I woke up early to prepare for Winter Solstice prayer in my aunt's shop. I had a very full breakfast. There was nice food for lunch; thus I had my lunch before leaving Gemas to Kuchai Lama. There were few heavy vehicles on the road and it was drizzling during my 2-hour journey.

The first thing I saw when I stepped inside this very familiar room was that paper bag on the bed. What was it? Was it mine? It's indeed for me. My very first X'mas gift in my life is from LWH. o.O Thanks a lot! I like it very much. I'll try not to wet it =X

I arranged my stuffs and finally I could have some rest. Then, I went to NSK to buy some filled tangyuan and I cooked the sugar water myself. LWH has yet to taste it. I wonder if he will have the time to taste it. Will it turn stale when he wants to eat it? I wonder. Hopefully not.

That night, I went out with a self-proclaimed "neutral" friend. We had dinner and I did some shopping for my X'mas hat and t-shirt. Then, we had a movie, "Flying Swords of Dragon Gate 龙门飞甲". It was a great movie.

When I got home, I had shower. Then, LWH and I were pillow talking until 4am before we got into our slumber. It was like we have not been talking for ages! Haha... It was great indeed.

Today, I did nothing much. I was exhausted yet I woke up early in the morning despite my late sleep. So, I decided not to go anywhere. I want to have a good rest for the upcoming events. They are going to drain me for sure. I have to revitalize myself.

Tonight is the same as the other nights. Thus, I shall be waiting....

Winter Solstice Poem

2011-12-21T21:08:00.001+08:00

Few days ago, I created a poem themed on Winter Solstice which falls on tomorrow. This noon, I edited it into JPG format and posted it as my profile picture in my Facebook.

Today's tuition, my cousins helped me out by arranging all the tables and chairs. Thanks! :D

Well, tonight my aunt's house will be having "tang yuan rolling" but I am not going. I wanted to learn the flour kneading process, but my aunt bought kneaded flour instead to make things easier. So, I asked her about the process and hopefully tomorrow I can succeed in kneading it in DTC.

I'm going to KL tomorrow; should be after breakfast - after eating "tang yuan". I'll have my haircut there too if possible. I'll pack my stuffs later. No packing mood yet :X

Here's the poem in JPG format. Do appraise it. Thanks ^^

Air-Cond

2011-12-20T23:04:00.001+08:00

This morning, the air-conditioner technicians came. Now, my classroom has a 1.5 horsepower air-cond. Consequently, it increases my debt! >_< I'm waiting for the carpenter sifu to deal with the door knob and the semi-glass door. He is such a slowpoke...

Hmm... One Malay mother called today to ask about PMR classes. I wonder if she will register her child/children under my classes soon.

Due to the installation of the air-cond, the floor was sandy. I was displeased. >< I had to sweep and mop it again. Tomorrow, I shall clean the spider web in the stairway.

I had 煮炒 - "wat dan hor" and "char kue teow" as my dinner. The tastes weren't up to the par though. =X

I have nothing much to do tonight. I guess I should go to bed by 12 midnight.

Well, I shall be waiting....

The Other Normal Day

2011-12-19T23:43:00.001+08:00

Today is like the other normal day. Almost the same routine. Nothing particular. Just that one girl phoned me to ask about Form 5 Biology and Chemistry. She registered!!! I was greatly delighted! But, of course she has to find a few more friends in order for me to open the class to teach. Hopefully, she can make it. Namo Namo...

Well, tonight is 華人星光大道 night. I am still watching and there are 4 parts to go. The only difference I felt is the absence of a companion while I am watching. Though, I guess we have made it somehow via MSN. : )

The night is pulling down the curtain. I should sleep upon finishing 華人星光大道. Then, I shall be waiting....

Teppanyaki + Organic Chicken Ginseng Soup

2011-12-18T21:50:00.000+08:00

Sunday, I supposed to sleep till the sun shone on my butt, anyhow I didn't. A phone call woke me up - Mr. Wong, not my ex-house owner but my potential customer called me to enquire about the flyers enclosed in the newspapers. I was kinda delighted actually. : )

At 12.30pm, it was drizzling. I walked to Shuang Xi Uncle's shop and waited for him to fetch me to my aunt's house for lunch. After eating, I drove my car back to the shophouse, fetching my cousin to teach her Math (Topic: Sets). When I was teaching, an anonymous phone call came in, another customer perhaps, so I thought. Well, once chatted, I doubted. Perhaps, my competitor? Hmm.. Never mind. After teaching, I sent her back and I returned to the shophouse.

I online awhile, then watched my very last episode of 万凰之王. Upon finishing watching this great drama, I started to have complicated feelings - mixture of everything - it killed my lacrimal glands; they overflowed without hesitation. I wondered why. Perhaps my new life was sending me shivering impulses, igniting the fire of my heart so that I could see through this very perseverance, my destined path of life.

At 6.15pm, I drove to my aunt's house again for dinner. When I reached there, I was told that we would be having teppanyaki for dinner. In this chill weather, it was indeed a great meal! Then, I was told there was organic chicken ginseng soup for me. I was like O_O what the..... OMG.... I love Chinese herbs!!! So-much-so, it's ginseng! Ginseng! O_O I drank it and chewed the ginseng. YUM YUM... =D Thank you for the meal~ Itadakimasu~

Well, after dinner, my aunt fetched me back to the shophouse. My car was parked in their porch. Since there will be new episode of 華人星光大道 in Youtube tomorrow and I have yet to watched the latest one, I decided to watch it tonight. After penning down the important details happened today, I shall continue watching it. Before doing so, allow me to go to have shower; my body smells teppanyaki right now. Hahaha...

Till then, I shall be waiting.... : )

Flyers

2011-12-17T23:31:00.002+08:00

As mentioned in the earlier post, my cousins came again this afternoon to have free tuition. I managed it perfectly this time. They seemed to enjoy my teaching. Hopefully, this will improve as time goes by. :D

After tuition, my aunt fetched me to deal with the newspapermen to distribute my tuition flyers. They are for tomorrow's newspapers! Another receipt came in. Oh, my pocket! Oh, my fortune! >< More debts! ><

Hmm... Any handmade present is much more preferable =X Please don't overspend....
I shall be waiting... : )

An Abrupt Teaching

2011-12-16T21:18:00.004+08:00

Today, while I was mopping the floor, I was shocked to see my cousins with a friend of them coming into my classroom. They said they were coming for so-called trial tuition lesson. -_- One Year 6, one Form 2, one Form 3 and two Form 5. What the.... I was challenged.... >< Luckily, I managed to sort it out and I taught Math to the Form 5s and BM composition to the others. On the whole, I couldn't say I nailed in the multi-ages class; I passed nevertheless. =X I could manage them moderately and I should be commended since it was an abrupt one! =X Wakakaka... Tomorrow they will come again. ><

Well, my aunt didn't prepare our dinner as my cousins wanted to eat outside food. So, we went to the opposite of our shop to have our dinner - KFC. I was so full.......... @_@ After returning to my solitary lair, I continue my doing my routine - Facebook, MSN, blogging, etc and also some guessing games were held -_-... Hmm... In dilemma if I should change my Facebook version to Timeline. =X

edited: 9:50pm = I officially am using Facebook Timeline! I like the design so much~~~ :D

All in all, another day has passed and I shall be waiting... : )

Day 3

2011-12-15T22:00:00.000+08:00

There is no CIMB in Gemas, so I have no choice but to open Maybank saving account this morning. I have two ATM cards now! Hahaha... As if my money is increasing.. -.-.. Hopefully it will soon!!! :D

Hmm.. Today, my mom boarded the KTMB train and it delayed 1 hour before departed to Kampar. My dad, aunt and grandparents waited her at 6 p.m. there and fetched her to Ipoh.

I've almost finished arranging my messy room. My aunt's stuffs are still here. It won't be moved in a while. So, I guess that's all for my room arrangement. I swept and mopped the sandy floor upstairs. Tomorrow, I'll need to do it again since sandy floor needs to be mopped many times in order to clean it.

Two receipts came in today and more are coming! My aunt told me that she would help me to pay for all the fees as if she was borrowing the money to me until I am able to pay her back. She said I should have some savings and shouldn't spend all of them now. Thanks a lot! Hopefully, I could pay her back by early next year. : )

Well, there is nothing much I wanted to write today. Allow me to end my today's blog with:

"I shall be waiting...."

The 'Memo'

2011-12-14T23:54:00.000+08:00

Hmm... So, it has been 2 days since I left Kuchai Lama. Actually, I have yet to prepare much for this new endeavor. Yesterday, while I was driving to Gemas, I heard the radio aired 学不会 by JJ 林俊杰 and it just pierced right into my heart.

Emotional as the song seems, yet I was strong enough to hold back my lachrymose feelings. It would be stupid for me to reverse my journey as there is no more assurance for me there. The assurance should be allowed to persevere with time despite the far distance; whether to grow or lax, I'm sure Mr. Time would bestow a very satisfying reward eventually.

Well, the call I received yesterday evening responding to the 'memo' had put myself at rest. Yet, a slight ray of silver lining appeared. Doubtedly in dilemma. So, I decided to wait - a week, a month, a year, a decade or even for a lifetime. 101401, Happy Huggy Day (14122011).

Anyway, tomorrow, my mom will leave Gemas to Ipoh for a body check-up, then return to hometown to continue her work as a babysitter. Thus, I'll need to rev up my profile and status here. I want to be acknowledged for my hard work and not via someone else's.

I know it's easier said than done. Finger-crossed and I shall run neck and neck with the other competitors and finally....... VOILA~ Becoming the best one! RAWR!!!!! Therefore, I ought to learn from my recollected past and apply them into my daily life.

"Where there is a will, there is a way.", so the saying goes.

Counting Days

2011-12-11T16:20:00.005+08:00

Counting days
For
My destined way.

Resisting,
Yet
A verdict it is.

Hoped and prayed,
But
Escapism isn't granted.

Heed it,
For
Destiny is unrivaled.

Mysterious future,
As
It always is.

Will we; Can we; Shall we;
Be
Destined to be close even if we are far apart?