Reluctance

Today will be my last day staying in Serdang for this semester. I'll be going back to my hometown, Teluk Intan, Perak soon. Perhaps an hour later. I'm waiting for Jared to carpool me.

I don't really have the mood to go home now, despite my great longing back to home a few weeks ago. I wonder why. I've been posting statuses in Facebook expressing myself about my reluctance.

Yesterday, I posted:

明天我就要回家了。这个学期就这样结束了。有一点点不舍得这里咯… 不舍得朋友们… 没关系啦。 还有 facebook 和 msn，我们可以继续保持联络的^^.. 去读书的，去玩的，去做工的 或 呆在家的朋友们，祝你们有一个愉快地生活咯！

Eight hours ago, I posted:

我很不舍得我在这里认识的朋友们。如果有人陪我熬夜聊天我就不睡觉。让我怀念这几个月来的酸甜苦辣。

Even though I'm reluctant to go home, I ought to go for some reasons which I think I should just keep them to myself. Hmm.. Actually, blogging makes me reminisce a lot of memories - good and bad ones. Lolz..

Enough... STOP!

Life during exam week is a total boredom to me. I couldn't spend my time enjoying activities I've always been doing. Worse yet, I've been battling my inner self not to reminisce my past. I want to have a carefree life. I want a life without worries. I want back my naive frame of mind. I wish I won't experience those devastating traumas, but I couldn't bend time; I couldn't reverse the ever-flowing time. No use crying over spilt milk. Nevertheless, I've learnt a lot and grown a lot. I will make use of this precious experience as my future guidance. I know it's easier said than done, but I hope I could engrave it in my heart and never fret. This is not a doomsday anyway! Every end is a new beginning, so I must not give up. I ought to persevere to see through these hardships!

Enough...
Soh Jenqlii, STOP reminiscing already!!!!

(面线 & honey lemon ) vs 巧克力

还记得面线和《honey lemon》的故事吗？

巧克力的故事呢？

现在，

我累了
无言啊~

真的是
两败俱伤呀~

还是先做回
平凡人好了~

Chocolate - My Savior, My Lover

Every night,
I could easily fall asleep
As I was tired -
Mentally tired
Due to my emotional frame of mind.

Every morning,
I could easily wake up
As I was hoping
I will be able to enjoy myself
Without having to spend my life
In this small room,
Facing my laptop,
Studying for my final,
And
Waiting for calls or smses.

I realized
Recently,
I tend to get emotional easily
Even for just a very small matter -
A small argument
Or clash of opinions,
I could easily drop some tears.

I'm getting fragile;
I'm getting weaker;
I'm getting tired
Of everything that happened on and around me.
I despise my life!
I hate myself!

I yearn for a new life -
Acknowledged by everyone,
Cared by everyone,
And loved by everyone.

There is only one thing which can save me now...
And that is
Chocolate...
Yes,
The magical chocolate.
Every bite of it
Can send me to the seventh heaven of delight.
I love you,
Chocolate...

Sonata

The melody of every note
Tenderly caught my heart and soul.

The tapping of the rhythm
Gracefully brought me to the 7th heaven.

The emotion you poured into every song
Was echoing deep inside my core.

No matter how blue you were in
You completed every set by all means.

How I wish it would never cease -
Our first date of the musical eve.

巧克力

巧克力
是一个很神奇地食品
拥有许多异能。

它能带出
人心的幸福与快乐，
寂寞或悲哀。

我希望
它能永远地
给我无限的幸福和快乐。

我也希望
我能成为
一个能带出幸福与快乐的巧克力。

下雨了

昨晚
又下了一场大雨
在雨中
她狠狠地
把我杀死了

我已变了一个魂
徘徊在这个世界
盲目地寻找
属于我的
自己