Tearless Cry

I was getting all emotional;
I didn't know why,
I just sensed it.
Perhaps I was just thinking too much.
I poured my temper into myself;
I kept myself quiet as my mind lingered around,
I didn't know what I was thinking,
The feeling of insecurity took over me.
I was scared that the more I voiced out,
The more dangerous it became.

So,
I remained silent.
I didn't know what to do.
I was down.
Sad.
A tearless cry.
I wonder why.

The only thing that I felt was insecurity.
I tried not to think about it,
But I couldn't command my brain.
It was too strong.

Until I reached home,
I did my chores,
Trying to stop thinking -
Cleaning my room, etc.
And spoke with my mom.
I finally calmed.
Perhaps I was just over-thinking.

Everyone has temper.
You, yourself have temper too.
Well,
That's my temper:
"Calm before the storm".

Once again,
It was my fault.
My fault for getting emotional out of the blue;
My fault for creating awkward silent moment;
My fault for the cold treat;
My fault for anything you deemed right.

Thinking back,
It was kinda scary.
I'm sorry for this scary temper of mine.
I hope there will be no storm ahead;
Rainy day shall turn to sunny again.